Today we met at Rest Haven and gathered around your resting site to pay tribute to what would have been your 17th birthday. It was a very beautiful and touching tribute but a very sad one as well. As we all let go of the yellow balloons tied with purple ribbon with special personal messages on them to you I couldn't help but cry because you should have been there to celebrate your day with us not taken from this world at such a young age. You will be missed Avery by all but never forgotten. Happy Birthday Buddy!
I lost my son
I lost my son, let me cry if I want, please don't try & stop my tears,
For each one that falls, is for his memories of the past, not being in the present, & no more future years.
I will no longer get to hear his laughter, see his bright smile, those dimples on his face,
My soul, my pride, my joy were buried with you & can never be replaced.
It takes all of my strength just to get through each day, so you see, I am not that strong,
Questions unanswered, words unspoken, guilt, blame, some days just asking myself where did I go wrong?
In his moment of weakness & darkness, just not in his right state of mind,
I cry out everyday “why, couldn't you come to me, just this one last time?”
I will never be able to hold him in my arms or kiss his cheek again,
We were so close, it's like losing two people because I also lost my best friend.
A very bright young man, with a lot of friends, could have done anything, whatever in life, he could choose,
Just that moment of despair, he made the decision to leave this life, not thinking of others and what we were going to lose..
Loss of a brother, a cousin, a grandchild, an uncle, a nephew, and a dear friend to everyone..
Especially me, his mother, left weak and broken, because I lost my beloved son.
Avery and Kelcie wanted me to take their photos at Appleworks and I can remember Avery stopping and posing with Kelcie saying how about this or this and hey take our picture in his funny voice that he would use. He had us cracking up that day becuase he acted like a little diva on the runway but it was such an awesome day and one my family and I will never forget!